idc if you read this

because no one ever is on blogger anymore idc if anyone reads this. i just dont have anyone to talk to so i'm writing...
its all just so stupid i know. and it hurts constantly. but i want it so badly and i dont see why i cant have it. why things just dont go how i think they should.. God is in control and his will is being done i know... but i just wonder what his plans for me are...who he has in store to be with forever. who he wants me to meet.. who he is changing me into. ]. its all complicated and i'm tired of my life as it is now. i'm tired of being in highschool. i'm tired of being in florida. i'm done with all the drama of pensacola. i want nothing to do with anyone who doesnt really care about me and is going to lie to my face and say they do. i'm tired of this junk. all of it is filling my life. keeping me out of focus. i'm not focused on God as much as i should be.. and maybe that is why all of this is happening. idk... i feel like if things do turn out how i would like then i could still focus on God. but maybe not. maybe i'd be so caught up in myself and me getting what i want that i'd neglect God..
i feel like the more and more i go on, the less people like me. the fewer friends i have. i know i'm not in this world to be liked and i'm going to have people hate me just as people hated Jesus but what about the 12. his best friends. where is my 12? i want to have that support group when i'm down. i want 12 really awesome people always there for me.
idk. whatever.. its just getting old. the same junk in my life. same sins i'm faced with. the same issues going on in the world around me. the same stuff. i want something new. i want something new....

i don't know.

as i begin to write, i don't know what may come out. i don't even know if I'm going to post this.. idk exactly anything anymore.. girls just give me trouble and honestly are too much work right now. I'm single at the moment, and for now, but yeah i date a lot i guess, i like being together with someone. being in a relationship. i like being loved. being kissed. being held tight in someones arms. sweet scent of perfume. i like all the pros of being with a girl. just the whole being tied down thing is what I'm not wanting. idk.. maybe its not even that. because when i really want to i can devote myself to one person only. people say i have too many girls. yea. i probably do have to many. i can't help it. i don't know how to get girls out of my life. to get them to stop liking me. even if i don't like them back.. i could talk about girls forever... they just are confusing.. nuff said. I've been getting pretty angry lately and i don't like it. its one of my weaknesses for sure. my parents just set me off sometimes and i get mad and i blow up. like over something so little. i can't control my emotions. its like I'm not even in control of me anymore, i mean I'm not in control God is. but it just feels weird. I've gotten so many mixed emotions within me idk what to do.. its my Sr year and I'm gunna have fun as much as i can. i want this year to be special. not just another year in high school. this is one of the best years of my life or its suppose to be lol. band is going well. just gotta get my work done and step up. weight lifting is kicking my butt. i should be a lot stronger than i am now. I'm pretty upset that I'm not as strong as i should be to win a lot for weight lifting. i just gotta do work and get big. idk. life is going mediocre right now and i want things to improve. i know a lot of people have a way worse life than me. i just want mine to be better. because i know it could be. idk how, but i know it just could be. oh oh oh! i totally saw two rainbows yesterday!! they were beautiful one giant one with a smaller yet still big one under it. it was spectacular =) but back to reality i guess. ha. oh and real quick, ballerina. toothbrush, left hand, oops. that was random =) ha anyway tomorrow is a brand new day. and I've decided to take life slow and drink it all in. like cherry Dr pepper. its got a kiss of cherry flavor. bahaha anyway. my mood has progressively got better from writing. hmmm.. i guess i will post this. idk..

Care

i can't say i don't
because that would be a lie
many of which i've told
just make me want to cry

i could say sorry
and maybe i should
but it'd be easy
if you just would

"fish in the sea"
is what we are
catch a good one
is where i set the bar

i've had great
but they just slipped
they got away as if
i fell and tripped

so i come back
to what i know
my own writing
it i show

to anyone who listens
to anyone who is there
anyone at all
i just want someone to care...

So what if i write poetry?

close your eyes
and just think
hold on tight
as I sing
soft music
in your ear
it's about love
I know no fear
you inspire me
to do everything
with you
I can do anything
you give me presents
more than you know
like the pretty smile
you always show
it's a gift
from you to me
I'll return the favor
just wait and see
everything I see
reminds me of you
little things like that
keep me from being blue
the pretty sun set
or a beautiful flower
maybe mac n cheese
that you devour
all these and more
get you on my mind
when I stop and think
more smiles i always find
I catch myself
with a huge grin
when i think of you
over and over again
this all goes
out to you
my feelings
I just wanted to prove

Birthday

Happy birthday to me =] lol. it's been an ok day. better than the last two years so i guess thats good. next year is the one i'm awaiting =] oh well. we'll see what happens this year of my life. i'm 17 =]

BAND

so today was the last day of rookie camp for band. over the past two Weeks i along with other seniors and section leaders taught many freshmen how to march. very exciting stuff. from day one up until now i have seen so much improvement it's just awesome. I'm proud of all of the upper class men for doing a good job and setting a good example. i will brag on myself for just a sec, ha, today was the last day and in all of Tate's band traditions we have one for rookie camp on the last day. a march off. we get all the freshmen in a block and call different commands that they have to follow. well after the freshmen do it, the upper class men get their chance to shine. so i go out there for the upper class men block and i get set. they start the tempo off fairly fast. about 120 b.p.m. or so. nothing too hard. we get moving while Ben, the winner of two years previous march off, calls out the commands. it gets down to the final 5. i tuba, 3 trombones and a flute. tuba and flute messed up so they fall out. it's just Annie, Lou, and me left. all trombones. ya. we're raw. well Lou messed up first on a slide change i believe and Annie messed up at a dressing move. thus leaving me the victor. I'm proud to be the 09 -10 rookie camp march off champ. ha. put that title on a trophy! anywho, good two weeks of hard work. plus now i have funny band tan lines =] peace

it's been a while..

.. since I've wrote in here. idk, I've just had other things, and, other people, occupying me i guess. Rookie camp for band starts tommorrow. it should be fun. i'm actually looking forward to it. our leadership team is really strong this year, i mean that physically and mentally and just all around we as a team are strong. i'm sure there will be more to come of band stuff later on. =] till then, WORD

Parents

are totally unreasonable. they blow everything out of proportion. they never understand. they always over react. they don't ever see your side of the story. they don't believe the world has changed, that anything has changed, since they were a kid. they don't wanna face the fact that kids grow up, become independent and make their own choices. parents just don't get kids. at least mine don't get me. idk how it is for everyone else but right now, my parents are crazy. it's not even funny. i could go on and on about them. ugh. forget it. whatever. bye.

Another song

Perfection is
something worth striving for
love is
walking right out the door

Following her
would be a big mistake
but walking away
is something i can't take

What to do
where to go
follow her?
maybe.. no.

She's over there
when i'm right here
loosing her
thats what i fear

What will happen
in the end
will she even be
my friend?

What to do
where to go
follow her?
maybe.. no.

I can't help
but feel this way
"it's so wrong"
thats what they say

On the beach
all day long
listening to
our favorite song
We will be
hand in hand
walking along
the white sand....

Where will i go
what will i do
i think i know
how to prove
That i'm the one
above the rest
you tell me
that i'm the best

So let us go
from here
i'm listening
you have my ear

Where will i go
what will i do
i think i know
what is true.

I think i know
what i'll do.

Haters

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxxPLDZnqwA


couldn't say it better.

Blue

It all started out
as us just friends
now I'm waiting
for you till the end.
It all started out
with a simple dream
turned into a hope,
desire for this theme.
It all started out
with just a small hug
now it's grown to big ones
gone from like to maybe love.
I can picture you're name
two syllables so strong
but yet soft and tender
oh how for you i long.
You don't demand my attention
you just draw it in
i can't wait until i
get to be with you again.
With you it's different
we are never fighting
it feels so right
us soon uniting.
I miss the sound
of your voice
falling for you
i had no choice.
Let happen what will
it's all for the best
i love talking to you
even if i get no rest.
Who needs sleep
when they can have love
it's not of this world
but from up above.
I've been told
i'm a metaphysical poet
thats fine with me
at least i know it.
But it's not about me
this is about you
how when we're together
there is no being blue.

Will you notice

Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh Gosh, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

My prayer

Heavenly father who is in heaven,
be with me in my trying times. When i am weak make me strong. Let my light so shine that i be an example and may many follow me because you are in me. Help me along my journey and lead me in the direction you want me to go. Let your will be done always. Forgive all of my sins and help me to be forgiving of the sins of others against me. Be with me Lord, but also be with them. The sick, the poor, the homeless, the elderly, the new born, the shut ins. Countless souls are out there Lord, and it is my prayer you help me to reach them. Make me a servant. Make me like you. Clean my heart and open it to new things. May i not be unwilling to do anything but wanting to do everything. Help me in school. My study habits are lacking, but that's not my main focus and you know that. Help me to reach out to those in need who are closest to me. My backyard is the mission field God, and help me to have the strength and endurance to continue on through the trying times. Through fire, or snow i want to serve you. Cloak me in you're armor so i may not be injured in this war field on earth. Whenever my time on this place does come to an end, be with my friends and family and comfort them. Give them peace in knowing i would now be with you. Be with me Lord. I need you. Most of all father, i want to thank you. For all that you do. You provide me with so much earthly junk that really i could live without. Thank you for always being there when i need someone to talk to, someone to just listen God. For sending your son, my brother, Jesus to this earth to die to save my life. I'm so thankful for that. Words cannot be said or spoken to describe it. Just thank you God. Through you're sons name i do pray, and all who agree say,
Amen.

No Rhyme? Get over it.

Such a rainy afternoon
as i look through the window
the rain comes down
drip after pretty drip.
Rain water cold as ice
falling down onto my face
as if tears from my eyes.
Don't cry i tell myself
so i wipe the stream from my face.
I look up and the sun is bright
shining oh so radiantly.
It's about that time of the day
when the sky turns purple
and i can't look away.
Gazing into the sunset
everything seems better.
As the unique colors fade to black
the truth comes out, nothings changed.
Maybe tomorrow they will.
It's a brand new day
I've been known to say...
The last subtle drips from the glass
glide down without a sound.
Thoughts, choices, decisions
all throughout my mind.
Clear ones, dumb ones
ones that are some what tempting.
I'll never choose
I'll just let things happen.
I tried pursuing my hopes
and just been let down
numerals to lengthy to count.
I'll do the same ole thing..
Suck it up, be a man.
Innocence is what i miss.
So let me be unknowing,
unaware of all of the war
in this big dumb world. All
suffering, death, hate, crime,
sin.
Let me be pure again.


( lyrics up for interpritation)

[ i like free verse]

{Fact}

New

For most of my life
there has been ups and downs
but now there is no jokes
no dumb, pointless clowns.
When i think of you
i think about a candle
about the gentle warmth
that i can handle.
The sweet scent
floats by my nose
through an open door
that i never close.
We have a lot in common
and i like it
your hand and mine
may just fit.
We'll never know
until we try
don't be scared
you won't cry.
Even if you did
I'd wipe your tears
no longer afraid
to face your fears.
Together we could
overcome it all
facing the evil
never taking a fall.
I feel like we
couldn't be stopped
together we'd survive
if we got dropped.
We would be strong
together we stand
walking along
hand in hand.
We will see
what happens on the way
tomorrow is
a brand new day.

Feelings

There are many
things that i feel
happiness, excitement,
all of it is real.
I just got home
from being with you
things went well
hope you think so too.
More and more
we spend time,
with each other
which is fine.
Creating jokes
that no one will get
except for us,
i won't forget.
Being with you
is so amazing
the feelings i get
now I'm constantly craving.
When we touch
my heart does sink
you like it too
at least .. i think?
The one thing
that i can tell
you enjoy
my noticable smell.
When i close my eyes
i picture we,
we as in us,
which i long there to be.
I really do
like being with you
it's almost like
a dream come true.
You be my
princess in yellow
i'll be your
handsome young fellow.
End of story
happy ending.
wait just a second
my text is sending.

Update

I'm on spring break
i find myself bored
sitting doing nothing
thinking about the lord
I sleep all day
and work all night
wanting you here
to hold me tight
I enjoy when
we are together
i get a feeling
light as a feather
I feel on top
like I'm superman
i get like this
if you touch my hand
I long for your touch
your skin against mine
when it happens
there is no time
Everything stops
except for us
our art continues
on this canvas
You're so cute
i say it often
beauty like a rose
fresh from the garden
The truth is
i really like you
i just hope
you like me too

Legal

Thats right. I got my license. WOOOOOT!!! lol. spring break coming up next week. looking forward to not going to school. it's gunna be sweet. work tonight from 530 to close. fun. act in the morning. awesome. then work tomorrow night 7 to close. woot. plus autumn and brian are coming over today so i gotta make time to be with them. busy weekend folks. shout out to sean and sheena and their baby. Holla =] both of them are going to be amazing parents. i know it. moving on, i have a prom date =] yeah. it's gunna be fun. more to come on the specifics of all my adventures. WORD

Me

There must be somthing
wrong with me.
i want to fix it
and us just be.
There's not even
an us anymore
it's like you're gone
and i'm on the floor.
Is there someone
else in your life?
they took my place,
won the fight?
But i didn't
even get to swing,
in a song
not a note would i sing.
I'm lost, wishing you
could open up
tell me whats wrong
we'll fix this stuff.
I look into
you're eyes and wonder
if you think of me
or is there another?
When i close my eyes
you are what i see
what happens for you,
do you see me?

Never enough

Just got home
from that work place
where i do crap
with a smile on my face.
It's all a lie
it's not true,
truth be told
I'm feeling blue.
Tired of all
of the being sore,
taking a beating
every time i go out a door.
All i do now
seems to be, is write.
i guess its better
than getting in a fight.
Sometimes i want
to really do
just what I'm
not suppose to.
Just bite the bullet
take the heat
fall to the ground
admit defeat.
But I'll never give up,
ever will i stand,
one day I'll join
that heavenly band.
I'm done worrying
about who or what
no ifs and or or's
not even a but.
Even though
i like talking to you
i have things
that i have to do.
Don't worry
I'm still here,
don't you even
shed a tear.
I'll never leave you
don't say good bye
it's the last thing
i want this time.
I'll keep doing
the best i can
never enough
are words i don't understand.

9:35 PM, just got home from work tonight. Monday March 30, 2009

Patience

Leaving town
getting away
one with nature
outside just to play
Surrounded by
your beauty
thinking of
your majesty
Under the stars
the moon and sky
dreams of you
just floating by
The grass is greener
on the other side?
No. it's more green
with you in my life
I know everything
happens for a reason
things change
in every season
One thing stays contstant
one thing always true
no matter what
i'm thinking of you..
On this trip
I didn't get a lot of sleep
but you in my heart
i always did keep
I'm getting close
to home now
i'm off the stage
taken my final bow
Some say i'm good
at telling how i feel
i don't know about that
i just try to keep it real
I still have questions
in my mind
like what will happen
over time
I guess we just
have to wait and see
give it up
and let it be.

i wrote this at 3:16 PM on the bus ride home from Savanna on Saturday March 28, 2009

Peace Love and Happiness

When you're here
and I'm there
i cant help but
to think and stare
As i lay
here in bed
wishing i were
with you instead
Music running
through my mind
it happens like this
almost every time
Cameras flash
we smile or say hello
but in reality
it's all a show
Cause you and i
both can tell
that when they smile
they want to yell
I've been thinking
a lot about peace
and just what
it really means
To truly love
to actually see
to not be blind*
to be set free
When i think of peace
i think of you
you showed me its real
showed me its true
So this goes to you
you know who you are
i don't need to say
it's not that far
It's quite close
from me to thee
not a foot away
like it needs to be
I'm working on
being better every day
thinking of you
helps along the way
I'm really glad
you're in my life
thanks so much
sweet dreams; good night

i wrote this at 1:55 AM, laying in bed of the hotel in Savanna the morning of Saturday March 28, 2009

Summary ( a lenghty one, but still a summary)

These past couple of days have been a roller coaster of emotion. Let me guide you through my adventure. Wednesday morning 3 am i wake up and go to Whataburger with some friends before the jazz trip to Savanna Georgia. At 4 am we get on the bus and head on out of town. We arrive in Savanna around 3 and things were going fairly well. We had a clinic with some pretty awesome jazz players such as my dad Wyclef Gordon. He's so raw at trombone. Yes i got his autograph and i stood next to him in the bath room!!! Sweetness i say! But, continuing on, Thursday comes around and we have a concert by a river and we played very well. It was super windy, but we did well none the less. That afternoon we had a session with some of the judges of the big competition that we were there for and they had only good things to say. Friday is here. Competition day. We do our set on the big stage in front of everyone and we owned. Played our hearts out. Best show I've ever put on. Later on that day they announce who made the top 3. Sadly we weren't one of them so i was pretty let down. Friday night we heard the top 3 bands, the ones that beat us, and i wasn't impressed. I was pretty livid that we got beat by them when clearly we were the more superior band. We should have at least been 3rd place. Then all the judges put on a show for us entitled Battle Royal. It featured trumpets dueling which was cool as well as saxes, trombones, basses, piano, and drums. It was a very good show. I was highly impressed. We left the hotel this morning at 8 am and headed home. I was ready to be home, and I'm glad i am now. While in Savanna i wrote some poetry that I'm thinking about posting. I'm not sure if i should or not yet, or if i want to. We shall see. That's it for the moment. Peace..

EXPLODE

I have so much to say, no one to say it too. if i don't get this out i'm gunna blow up big time. it's not gunna be pretty. uh. i need to talk to someone. someone soon. like in less than 7 hours. thats when i leave for georgia. well i eat breakfast in 6 so.... i just need to talk to someone fast. taxting would be ok, but preferably on the phone. i could get everything out much fatster that way.. uhhh!! so much on my mind, and its not about girls, well just a little bit is, bu mostly its about work and the dumb parents and wii and just stuff. kfhewkrhcfn;odsricghlasf thats how i feel. i'm about to ............................ *BOOM*

The near future

The future ahead
looks pretty bright
we'll see what happens
as i walk towards the light

I don't know
don't really care
what happens now
as long as you're there

I walk along
all of my days
thinking of you
in multiple ways

You look so cute
you always do
i dress nice
hoping to impress you

Sometimes you notice
othertimes you don't
i long to be with you
for some reason you won't

You won't open up
you won't let me in
I'm trying to help
you say i'm your friend

I just care
more than you know
sometimes my feelings
come out and show

I can't hide it
its bursting inside me
to try and hide it
i work out and play wii

things will be ok
they will be soon
maybe not now
hopefully by noon

General life

The single life
the life i now live
i have to face it
this is how it is

Sometimes it hurts
othertimes it doesn't
Most of the time
i wish that it wasn't

That it wasn't real
It were all i lie
That i had less pain
no reason to cry

But thats not true
not true at all
The truth be told
all i do is fall

Fall away and
fall down
fall on my face
like a pie hitting a clown

"Just friends"
seems like a curse
"just for now"
that would be a first

"Lets take a break"
they always say
but time goes on
day after day

It's never a break
it's over for good
You're leavin
i knew you would

You never know
how you feel
can't tell which
emotions are real

I need to know
what to do
do i go for her
or wait for you

I already know
who to choose
i just hope
you i don't loose

I'll end up
being the fool
you'll still
be all cool

I wish college
were here
i'm ready for
all 4 years

We'll just see
what happens though
what will come,
i'm waiting to know

This Weekend

So this weekend was the church retreat. It was so much fun. I bonded a lot with everyone and just overall, good, wholesome, fun. =] No regrets =] Anyone want some coffee?? hahahahaha

Coming soon

So the retreat starts tomorrow and i couldn't be more stoked. I'm loving Sean, Big D, Kayla, my boy - Seth, Hallah, Rachel, Ryan, Chris, Deanna, Corey, Sarah and everyone really (don't feel left out if i didn't specifically mention your name, i was just thinking of people off the top of my head. I love our WHOLE group tons! ) Our youth group is awesome. I'm just ready for the retreat and to continue to be the real Blake Pinney.

End of story.

Will the real Blake Pinney please stand up?

The real Blake :

1. isn't cocky
2. doesn't play on an actual sports team
3. is kind of a looser
4. is shy
5. thinks he's not attractive
6. doesn't have a big ego
7. plays video games
8. writes poetry
9. lifts weights to get out anger
10. enjoys dressing nice
11. tries to fit in
12. loves God with all of his heart
13. tries to please everyone, even if it hurts him in the process
14. thinks saggy pants are strange
15. likes the color purple
16. enjoys reading for pleasure
17. isn't open with everyone
18. is scared often
19. doesn't mind crying
20. is a lover not a fighter
21. stands up for his beliefs
22. is athletic, but hardly ever gets to use his talents
23. is in band, and not a nerd
24. only drinks water and juices; occasionally Tiger Gatorade
25. is really big into health
26. likes baths
27. enjoys candles and soft music
28. prefers mac over pc
29. tries too hard
30. texts a lot, but most of his messages are short
31. isn't a player
32. wishes he was better at guitar
33. wants to be taller
34. is an Auburn fan no matter what
35. should read his bible more
36. needs to be patient
37. is bad at choosing
38. has eyes that change colors on their own
39. doesn't hate, maybe dislike very strongly, but not hate
40. likes to cook
41. wears his heart on his sleeve
42. listens to many different types of music
43. loves to play jazz music on his trombone
44. should practice trombone more
45. is a bit lazy sometimes
46. loves his king size water bed
47. can be a morning person when he wants to be
48. is glad he has really good friends
49. loves protein
50. enjoys watching sunsets

The real Blake has a big heart and it gets hurt often, but it's okay because he's strong through God. He longs to be more Christ like, and everyday is a battle against Satan. Blake is learning everyday how to defend himself for the life long battle against sin. The real Blake needs prayers and is praying for everyone else who prays for him.

Old poems of mine i like =] part 2

I can't sleep

All I can do is write

I go through this life

Longing for a flight


A trip or vacation

From all the beings

That are in this world

And all that I'm seeing


I try to get away

But I always fail

Wishing this is all a lie

Or just a fairytale


But it always is true

N' wounds heal over time

But I'm so sick

Of all the crime


People hating people

Death everywhere

All I can do is look

Not blink, just stare


Fighting is wrong

We really need peace

But we act like mad dogs

Let off the leash


Look to God

That is the key

We all need his grace

Especially me

Old poems of mine i like =] part 1

When I felt like falling
You were there to catch me
When I felt like crying
You were there to hold me

You were always there for me
And I'm always here for you
When we're feeling sad or glad
When we feel orange or if we feel blue

At this moment in time
I'm feeling sad
I don't know why.
I'm not really mad.

Things in life
Are pretty good
You treated me
Just like you should

I need to cheer up
And put on a smile
Come on over baby
And please, stay a while.

Come on over
And make me glad
Tell me so I'll know
You're the best thing I ever had

I never really could
Stop thinking of you
You were always on my mind
Yeah. It's true.

I don't really know
What else to do or say
So I guess this is it
God, lead the way.

Anger and Pain

The thing i struggle with most
is that I'm constantly mad
I'd like to give it to my host
and just be happy, be glad.

I feel consumed with pain
constantly angry and sore
until i hear her name
then i close the door.

Sometimes i hide this
other times i let it show
why can't i feel bliss
and look to God and grow?

I know i have people who care
someone to tell everything to
friends that are always there
people who can get me through.

I don't know what to say
it happens all the time
i can't help but be this way
eventually I'll be fine.

Things will go back
to how they should be
a small smile I'll crack
and maybe be able to see.

I can't wait till tomorrow
go to church and sing
there will be no sorrow
anger i will not bring.

I'll give it up at the altar
my anger will finally cease
Pray not to falter
and God, let me have peace.



it's in ABAB even though i like AABB more, but i thought i'd switch it up, i'm feeling froggy, so when in rome.

No name

I have work today from 4-8 that'll be fun. It's the first time I've worked all week. I was suppose to work Wednesday, but i really wanted to come to church so i got my boy josh to cover my shift. I was suppose to work yesterday but i had a band thing i had to do, so i couldn't work then either, so today is my first day back at work. My paycheck is gunna be small ha. Lame. It's all good though.
I'm playing tiger woods golf right now on my wii and it's pretty ballin. I love golf. I haven't played in a couple of days so I'm a bit rusty, but I'm still kickin butt. Hmmmm.
I'm pretty ready for church tomorrow and i'm really excited about our spring retreat. It's gunna be so sweet. I love Sean and our whole group. I'm bored now.. Haha. No but seriously.
Kiss me through the phone = great song. Just sayin. I like it. If you don't, uh, well, too bad.
=P
I'm reading Wild at Heart again just because i liked it a lot the first time i read it a couple of years ago. I've forgotten how much i like it and what a great book it is.
More to come later. =]

my song

i wrote this about a month ago and i really like it. it's called you're gone. i'm still working on the guitar part . i'm not that great but hey perfect practice makes perfect. ha. anyway err i mean spamoni, here she is:

It’s like every time
I turn around
To look into your eyes
You’re gone.

I want this to last
But I don’t know how long
I can keep this up.
When you choose your friends
Over being with me
You talk to your parents
But they won’t see

You can’t go out
I can’t come over
You ask again, they say
Maybe when you’re older

It’s like every time
I turn around
To look into your eyes
You’re gone

Its ok baby
I understand
I just want you to
To hold my hand

I wish you were here
By my side.
I couldn’t forget you
Even if I tried

You’re on my mind
All of the time

And every time
I turn around
To look into your eyes
You’re gone

But maybe one day
Things will go along
And I will write
Us another song

And you will be here
Just like you should
You’ll say I love you
Like I knew you would

You can go out
And I can come over
You ask your parents
They say now that you’re older

So next time I go
And turn around
To look into your eyes
You won’t be gone

Baby please don’t be gone…


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If you ask real nice, and i'm feeling good, maybe i'll sing it for you. Maybe. =]

Blah

I'm doing chemistry homework and it's not fun. i sit here and type but i keep getting distracted. This paper is due tonight which stinks. Thoughts of her float around in my mind as if they were ice cream in a rootbeer float. Mmmm that sounds good right now. Ice cream. =] ha. But for reals this stinks. More later.

Problem in P-town

As i lay around today, i stumbled upon an epiphany. Pimps have plenty of girls. Multiple at one time. But what if this pimp falls for one of his girls? What is he to do with all of the other girls following him around? When this pimp is use to tons of girls around him all the time can he really give up the life of a "playa" just for that one girl. She is so pretty and everything a guy could ask for in a girl. Is that pimp really gunna give up all the glamour just to be with this one girl when he could have twelve?