Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up put down the phone
Like your favorite song goes
It's just like being alone
Oh Gosh, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away
So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape
Got to take what you can these days
There's so much ahead
So much regret
I know what you want to say
I know it but can't help feeling differently
I loved you, and I should have said it
But tell me just what has it ever meant
I can't help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
My prayer
Heavenly father who is in heaven,
be with me in my trying times. When i am weak make me strong. Let my light so shine that i be an example and may many follow me because you are in me. Help me along my journey and lead me in the direction you want me to go. Let your will be done always. Forgive all of my sins and help me to be forgiving of the sins of others against me. Be with me Lord, but also be with them. The sick, the poor, the homeless, the elderly, the new born, the shut ins. Countless souls are out there Lord, and it is my prayer you help me to reach them. Make me a servant. Make me like you. Clean my heart and open it to new things. May i not be unwilling to do anything but wanting to do everything. Help me in school. My study habits are lacking, but that's not my main focus and you know that. Help me to reach out to those in need who are closest to me. My backyard is the mission field God, and help me to have the strength and endurance to continue on through the trying times. Through fire, or snow i want to serve you. Cloak me in you're armor so i may not be injured in this war field on earth. Whenever my time on this place does come to an end, be with my friends and family and comfort them. Give them peace in knowing i would now be with you. Be with me Lord. I need you. Most of all father, i want to thank you. For all that you do. You provide me with so much earthly junk that really i could live without. Thank you for always being there when i need someone to talk to, someone to just listen God. For sending your son, my brother, Jesus to this earth to die to save my life. I'm so thankful for that. Words cannot be said or spoken to describe it. Just thank you God. Through you're sons name i do pray, and all who agree say,
Amen.
be with me in my trying times. When i am weak make me strong. Let my light so shine that i be an example and may many follow me because you are in me. Help me along my journey and lead me in the direction you want me to go. Let your will be done always. Forgive all of my sins and help me to be forgiving of the sins of others against me. Be with me Lord, but also be with them. The sick, the poor, the homeless, the elderly, the new born, the shut ins. Countless souls are out there Lord, and it is my prayer you help me to reach them. Make me a servant. Make me like you. Clean my heart and open it to new things. May i not be unwilling to do anything but wanting to do everything. Help me in school. My study habits are lacking, but that's not my main focus and you know that. Help me to reach out to those in need who are closest to me. My backyard is the mission field God, and help me to have the strength and endurance to continue on through the trying times. Through fire, or snow i want to serve you. Cloak me in you're armor so i may not be injured in this war field on earth. Whenever my time on this place does come to an end, be with my friends and family and comfort them. Give them peace in knowing i would now be with you. Be with me Lord. I need you. Most of all father, i want to thank you. For all that you do. You provide me with so much earthly junk that really i could live without. Thank you for always being there when i need someone to talk to, someone to just listen God. For sending your son, my brother, Jesus to this earth to die to save my life. I'm so thankful for that. Words cannot be said or spoken to describe it. Just thank you God. Through you're sons name i do pray, and all who agree say,
Amen.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
No Rhyme? Get over it.
Such a rainy afternoon
as i look through the window
the rain comes down
drip after pretty drip.
Rain water cold as ice
falling down onto my face
as if tears from my eyes.
Don't cry i tell myself
so i wipe the stream from my face.
I look up and the sun is bright
shining oh so radiantly.
It's about that time of the day
when the sky turns purple
and i can't look away.
Gazing into the sunset
everything seems better.
As the unique colors fade to black
the truth comes out, nothings changed.
Maybe tomorrow they will.
It's a brand new day
I've been known to say...
The last subtle drips from the glass
glide down without a sound.
Thoughts, choices, decisions
all throughout my mind.
Clear ones, dumb ones
ones that are some what tempting.
I'll never choose
I'll just let things happen.
I tried pursuing my hopes
and just been let down
numerals to lengthy to count.
I'll do the same ole thing..
Suck it up, be a man.
Innocence is what i miss.
So let me be unknowing,
unaware of all of the war
in this big dumb world. All
suffering, death, hate, crime,
sin.
Let me be pure again.
( lyrics up for interpritation)
[ i like free verse]
{Fact}
as i look through the window
the rain comes down
drip after pretty drip.
Rain water cold as ice
falling down onto my face
as if tears from my eyes.
Don't cry i tell myself
so i wipe the stream from my face.
I look up and the sun is bright
shining oh so radiantly.
It's about that time of the day
when the sky turns purple
and i can't look away.
Gazing into the sunset
everything seems better.
As the unique colors fade to black
the truth comes out, nothings changed.
Maybe tomorrow they will.
It's a brand new day
I've been known to say...
The last subtle drips from the glass
glide down without a sound.
Thoughts, choices, decisions
all throughout my mind.
Clear ones, dumb ones
ones that are some what tempting.
I'll never choose
I'll just let things happen.
I tried pursuing my hopes
and just been let down
numerals to lengthy to count.
I'll do the same ole thing..
Suck it up, be a man.
Innocence is what i miss.
So let me be unknowing,
unaware of all of the war
in this big dumb world. All
suffering, death, hate, crime,
sin.
Let me be pure again.
( lyrics up for interpritation)
[ i like free verse]
{Fact}
Monday, April 13, 2009
New
For most of my life
there has been ups and downs
but now there is no jokes
no dumb, pointless clowns.
When i think of you
i think about a candle
about the gentle warmth
that i can handle.
The sweet scent
floats by my nose
through an open door
that i never close.
We have a lot in common
and i like it
your hand and mine
may just fit.
We'll never know
until we try
don't be scared
you won't cry.
Even if you did
I'd wipe your tears
no longer afraid
to face your fears.
Together we could
overcome it all
facing the evil
never taking a fall.
I feel like we
couldn't be stopped
together we'd survive
if we got dropped.
We would be strong
together we stand
walking along
hand in hand.
We will see
what happens on the way
tomorrow is
a brand new day.
there has been ups and downs
but now there is no jokes
no dumb, pointless clowns.
When i think of you
i think about a candle
about the gentle warmth
that i can handle.
The sweet scent
floats by my nose
through an open door
that i never close.
We have a lot in common
and i like it
your hand and mine
may just fit.
We'll never know
until we try
don't be scared
you won't cry.
Even if you did
I'd wipe your tears
no longer afraid
to face your fears.
Together we could
overcome it all
facing the evil
never taking a fall.
I feel like we
couldn't be stopped
together we'd survive
if we got dropped.
We would be strong
together we stand
walking along
hand in hand.
We will see
what happens on the way
tomorrow is
a brand new day.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Feelings
There are many
things that i feel
happiness, excitement,
all of it is real.
I just got home
from being with you
things went well
hope you think so too.
More and more
we spend time,
with each other
which is fine.
Creating jokes
that no one will get
except for us,
i won't forget.
Being with you
is so amazing
the feelings i get
now I'm constantly craving.
When we touch
my heart does sink
you like it too
at least .. i think?
The one thing
that i can tell
you enjoy
my noticable smell.
When i close my eyes
i picture we,
we as in us,
which i long there to be.
I really do
like being with you
it's almost like
a dream come true.
You be my
princess in yellow
i'll be your
handsome young fellow.
End of story
happy ending.
wait just a second
my text is sending.
things that i feel
happiness, excitement,
all of it is real.
I just got home
from being with you
things went well
hope you think so too.
More and more
we spend time,
with each other
which is fine.
Creating jokes
that no one will get
except for us,
i won't forget.
Being with you
is so amazing
the feelings i get
now I'm constantly craving.
When we touch
my heart does sink
you like it too
at least .. i think?
The one thing
that i can tell
you enjoy
my noticable smell.
When i close my eyes
i picture we,
we as in us,
which i long there to be.
I really do
like being with you
it's almost like
a dream come true.
You be my
princess in yellow
i'll be your
handsome young fellow.
End of story
happy ending.
wait just a second
my text is sending.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Update
I'm on spring break
i find myself bored
sitting doing nothing
thinking about the lord
I sleep all day
and work all night
wanting you here
to hold me tight
I enjoy when
we are together
i get a feeling
light as a feather
I feel on top
like I'm superman
i get like this
if you touch my hand
I long for your touch
your skin against mine
when it happens
there is no time
Everything stops
except for us
our art continues
on this canvas
You're so cute
i say it often
beauty like a rose
fresh from the garden
The truth is
i really like you
i just hope
you like me too
i find myself bored
sitting doing nothing
thinking about the lord
I sleep all day
and work all night
wanting you here
to hold me tight
I enjoy when
we are together
i get a feeling
light as a feather
I feel on top
like I'm superman
i get like this
if you touch my hand
I long for your touch
your skin against mine
when it happens
there is no time
Everything stops
except for us
our art continues
on this canvas
You're so cute
i say it often
beauty like a rose
fresh from the garden
The truth is
i really like you
i just hope
you like me too
Friday, April 3, 2009
Legal
Thats right. I got my license. WOOOOOT!!! lol. spring break coming up next week. looking forward to not going to school. it's gunna be sweet. work tonight from 530 to close. fun. act in the morning. awesome. then work tomorrow night 7 to close. woot. plus autumn and brian are coming over today so i gotta make time to be with them. busy weekend folks. shout out to sean and sheena and their baby. Holla =] both of them are going to be amazing parents. i know it. moving on, i have a prom date =] yeah. it's gunna be fun. more to come on the specifics of all my adventures. WORD
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