whatever

this roller coaster that im on
it just goes up and down
just as my head spins
it keeps on. round and round.

when will it stop?
i certainly want it to
i feel so many things
i just dont know what to do

voices in my head
tell me things crazy
it use to be seldom
but now it seems daily

its good but then
it gets soooo bad
i'm happy but then
i just get all mad

i want more
so much more
but i just cant
it seems im poor

im in college
miles away
left with thoughts
leading me astray

but i fight
why dont you
i need you to fight
i just need you to...

i wish so much
but its for nothing
wishes dont come true
but its better than nothing

i'm falling back
back back down
into the stage
where things are a frown

i can be happy
i have to choose it
i cant find the happy
did i loose it?

no, you have it.
you have my joy
but your not using it
your treating it like a toy

well its not a toy
its my heart
my happiness
you have my heart

so treat it well
dont let it weep
dont let me cry
and my heart skip a beat

when i get like this
its so hard to breathe
but i just cant
i dont want to leave..

but i did
and im gone
and i dont know
if its for long

this is crazy
life is so tough
mine is going fast
and its frikken rough

i had this twitter
i wanted to tweet
about my heart
and how you made it beat

but then i just didnt
i couldn't post the words
they left my lips
flown like birds

as you text me "k"
it hurts so much
more than you think
more than a bunch

i cry every night
sometimes for good
but a lot for bad
i miss good..

i'm outta rhymes
i'm just done
with this whole thing
this writing sucks
but i dont care

your not going to read it
no one will
i have few people to talk to
no one is there to listen it seems

especially when we fight
then your gone too
thats so dumb
all i have is you

i just want to be ok
to be happy
idk if thats going to happen though...
so whatever........


:'(